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Not Coincidence November 7, 2007

Filed under: Coincidence,Family,Growth,Praise — judgedbyhim @ 7:31 pm

Have you ever looked back on something and realized it meant much more than you thought it did at the time? I had a moment like that this morning. When I woke up, my mom said, “Dakota has something exciting to tell you. He’s been going crazy waiting for you to get up.” I found my twelve-year-old brother and asked him what it was. He proceeded to read to me the letter I had helped him write last year to his favorite author, Brian Jacques, who writes a medieval fantasy series starring talking animals. The books are kind of like a more serious, complex Disney Robin Hood (you know, the talking animals swordfighting). I adored the books when I was Dakota’s age, and was more than willing to help him with this letter he wrote. In it, he suggested a plot line to Mr. Jacques, saying he thought it would make a good novel. I helped him with the plot, since I’m a writer, and he sent off the letter. I guessed nothing would ever come of it–it was just fan mail to this guy, right?

That’s why Dakota blew my socks off when he read me his letter and then held up Mr. Jacques’ newest book, Eulalia!. He said, “The plot’s completely different, but some of the scenes are the same, and he uses the same characters!” He proceeded to explain the parallels: there are at least six. Shocked, I watched his eyes dance and his feet dance around the kitchen as he poured out his joy at his discovery. He told me he had not found any acknowledgment of his contribution (I think he was kind of hoping the book was dedicated to him) and I saw him searching the pages, still hoping he would find something.

I took the book from him and he told me he had read the book, but skipped the prologue. Of course, I went straight there and found this paragraph: “Since I arrived at this mountain, I have set myself a pleasurable duty. From my own recollections, and information gathered from friends, both old and young, I recently put quill to parchment and began this Chronicle. Mayhaps when the story is finally told, my young daughter will enjoy reading it. I hope you will, too, my friend. Well, it starts like this…” This is written in voice of the character writing the “Chronicle”, but I found its message to be clear. I read it to Dakota and said, “Here’s your acknowledgment, buddy.” He went crazy!

I don’t know if Brian Jacques meant anything but what the character said in that paragraph. I don’t know if he meant to use Dakota’s ideas or not. It may be that it’s all one giant coincidence. There is one thing, however, that I know is not coincidence. God used this author to give my brother an experience he will remember as long as he lives. That little boy’s joy was contagious. Suddenly, he knows his ideas have worth, his opinion is important, and that his thoughts make a difference. What an effect that will have on his life! The boy who has the most fantastic ideas for stories but “can never get them to come out right on paper” has been shown that he has potential and merit. Wow!

I wish you could have seen the delight and thrill on his face, or the way he scampered around the house, copied the page with the paragraph above, and determined to purchase the book (as the other copy is the library’s). There is no doubt that this was no coincidence; it was orchestrated by God to give a young boy an experience that will be a molding influence on his life.



Pictures of Importance to Me! November 1, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — judgedbyhim @ 9:51 pm

Kyle and DaddyMomma, Daddy, and Kyle
HannahThese are some people that are very special to me, some of the ones who have had the greatest influence on my life, and I’m just in a mood to appreciate them. These are my mom, my dad, my brother, my incredible spiritual sister, and the greatest gentlemen I have ever known! (Oh, and I’m not good at the whole pasting in pictures thing, so sorry about the mess…The Most Incredible Gentlemen!


I’m So Excited!

Filed under: Uncategorized — judgedbyhim @ 9:17 pm

Well, first an update on my pastor’s wife. She’s doing well, her elbow surgery was successful and easy, and she has been moved to a regular room. She’s recovering well and we hope she will be able to come home by the end of the week. Thank you for praying!

Now for what I’m so excited about! I am, as some people know, obsessed with writing. Currently I’ve been working on a novel, which is 550 pages long currently–and at its climax! I have been writing this novel for over two years, and as of yesterday I began writing its climax! You have no concept of how excited I am. The sense of accomplishment is euphoric (imagine how it will be when I FINISH the book!). The book has taken a lot of planning and I’ve experienced writer’s block sooooo many times since I started writing it. I’m so happy to have written the climax and be entering the denouement.

So, yeah. Not as spiritually significant as other posts, nor does it have their sorry attempt at philosophical thought, but it’s important to me.


Urgent Request for Prayer October 29, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — judgedbyhim @ 10:16 am

I know I already hit y’all with a prayer request earlier, but this is really urgent.

I just found out about ten minutes ago that my pastor, Van Marsceau, and his wife and ten-year-old son were in a car accident last night on their way home. Another car lost control around a turn and slammed into them. My pastor is very sore in his shoulders and arms and has his wrist wrapped, and his son has seatbelt burns.

His wife, Janet, however, is in critical condition! She has a cracked rib and a cracked elbow (they will operate on the elbow on Wednesday). She is bleeding internally and they don’t know where it’s coming from or how to stop it. It might be either the kidney or the spleen. This lady is such a foundation of our church. The definition of a lady, she is a constant presence. I know she is a support for her husband that he would have a hard time dealing without.

On top of all that, we were due to move into our new church building this Sunday. We have been working on this building for almost ten years, saving to build it debt-free and involving the congregation in the building work. We know our ministry will explode when we have our own facility to employ. Apparently Satan knows it, too, and he is doing his best to knock us down. PLEASE pray for us! Pray for God’s will in Janet’s body, and that Satan would not be given satisfaction.

Please pray also for the family of the driver of the other car, a 20-year-old man who was killed. Pray for the passenger of the other car as well. We don’t know gender, age, or anything, but they were seriously injured and are in the hospital now. Pray God would use this to bring them to Him if they are not already His children.

Thank you for your prayers and I will update when I can!



I See that I’m Blind October 28, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — judgedbyhim @ 11:00 pm

OK, so I can clearly see that I’m blind. That was a fun oxymoron, but really the truth. More are more lately, as huge decisions rest on my ability to accurately determine God’s will for my life, I am faced with the dilemma that I am so humanly blinded to His plan for me.

Just one of many major decisions before me: should I go to Malawi this summer or not? The idea developed literally overnight and took off from there, so it grabbed hold of me and wouldn’t let go. First it was going to be summer 2009, with two other girls. Then we switched to this summer and one of the girls found she could not go. That left me, Krista, and summer 2008 ll by ourselves in God’s hands. I feel like my heart got shipped over there ahead of me! I want to be there. Just envisioning the impact this trip could have on both the people of Malawi and my own heart makes me want to jump on a plane right now and worry about finances and all the details later.

Yet I can’t. How can I possibly jump ahead in this when I don’t know yet if I have God’s approval? I was going to be a counselor at New Life Bible Camp this year, and now that could change. Where does God want me? Malawi, Pennsylvania, or somewhere else altogether? The last thing I want to do is rush forward, dive off the edge of the platform, and plunge into the waters of activity before I even know if God is asking me to take that leap! If I force God’s hand and demand my way, acting as if it’s in His plan, what will the consequences be? I could get sick and not be able to go to college in the fall. Hey, for all I know I could die! It is honestly a dangerous trip. Without God’s approval and hand of protection, more than the failure of a trip is at stake and I fear the consequences.

Yet someone I asked to pray for me responded with this: “I remember something Ron Luce wrote, something like, ‘If you want to go on a missions trip, by all means go, because God already called you to do that during the Great Commission. But if, once you’ve already said that you will go and God says, no, not this time, that’s when you quit the trip.'” That hit me really hard and pointed me towards what I believe is the right way to go with this. I should assume God accepts and approves this, that it is His will, because He did command us to go unto the ends of the earth and teach His Word. That’s what we are doing. What I need to watch for is not a sign telling us we should go; rather, I should look for a sign telling us we should not.

I tend to be brick-headed, and God often takes me and slams me with something even harder than my head in order to make me pay attention. If He needs to tell me “no” about this, He’s probably going to have to do it like that. It’s gonna hurt, whether me or someone else (my dad nearly died once because of my stubbornness against God–ask me sometime). Please pray for me. Pray for my eyes to be opened and my heart to be soft, so that God would be able to tell me His will in the least dramatic way possible. Help me to see His signs and know His will. Please pray for me! Pray for me, pray for Malawi, and pray for, above all, God’s will to be done in me.

Thank you for your prayers! (And if you actually read all the way through that outpouring of helter-skelter emotion, congratulations on your fortitude!)


Appreciation of Gentlemen October 6, 2007

Filed under: chivalry,gentlemen,ladies — judgedbyhim @ 11:17 pm

Today my town had a festival in which I am working a booth, which required me to bring quite a few things to the booth. Since the streets were closed for the event, my mom could only drop me at the top of the street, have my brothers unload for me, and continue to my brother’s baseball game. That left me to carry two crock pots, two large storage bins of cookies, two banners, two cake holders, a grocery basket full paint cans, and a four foot long cooler two hundred yards to the booth. By myself. Ouch!

I resignedly made six trips back and forth to carry all these things to the booth. I made it just fine and even managed the heavy stuff. It was a lot of work, but nothing truly remarkable, except for one thing: in order to get to my booth, I passed three different large church stands where people were setting up for their fundraiser. There were easily ten men at each booth, ranging from the elderly to teenagers. About thirty men, and not one single man offered to help me. Not one! Several older teen boys (young men) sat doing nothing and watched me make my multiple trips from my large pile of stuff to the tent. I was not the only woman in such a predicament, I saw throughout the day, and all I could think as I carried things was, “You are the next generation of Christian men, and you are out here representing Christ to people who have never seen Him. Why aren’t you being gentlemen?” I was honestly not upset or offended, simply saddened.

Now, I write this not to beat up men and lecture you about being gentlemen, chivalrous, and all that. Instead, I a writing to thank you, deeply and with all my heart. While so many men and young men, claiming to be Christians, do nothing to honor ladies and show chivalry, I know that the people who read this blog, and many other men I know, are the best of gentlemen. Because of that, I thank you. Your caliber and quality seem to wither daily in our culture, for many obvious reasons. Therefore, as I witness the heart-breaking lack of honor and gentlemanly behavior from men, I do not condemn or criticize you. Instead, I applaud and encourage you. Thank you so much for being who you are, gentlemen that make the world just a little brighter for ladies. You continually strive to show us Christ’s love and protection through your action. I cannot appreciate or exhort you more truly and deeply.



My Jesus September 26, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — judgedbyhim @ 11:17 pm

OK, so I just had to post the lyrics to the song I mentioned in the last post, “My Jesus” by Todd Agnew.

Which Jesus do you follow?
Which Jesus do you serve?
If Ephesians says to imitate Christ
Then why do you look so much like the world?

Cause my Jesus bled and died
He spent His time with thieves and liars
He loved the poor and accosted the arrogant
So which one do you want to be?

Blessed are the poor in spirit
Or do we pray to be blessed with the wealth of this land
Blessed are they that hunger and thirst for righteousness
Or do we ache for another taste of this world of shifting sand

Cause my Jesus bled and died for my sins
He spent His time with thieves and sluts and liars
He loved the poor and accosted the rich
So which one do you want to be?

Who is this that you follow
This picture of the American dream
If Jesus was here would you walk right by on the other side or fall down and worship at His holy feet

Pretty blue eyes and curly brown hair and a clear complexion
Is how you see Him as He dies for Your sins
But the Word says He was battered and scarred
Or did you miss that part
Sometimes I doubt we’d recognize Him

Cause my Jesus bled and died
He spent His time with thieves and the least of these
He loved the poor and accosted the comfortable
So which one do you want to be?

Cause my Jesus would never be accepted in my church
The blood and dirt on His feet would stain the carpet
But He reaches for the hurting and despised the proud
I think He’d prefer Beale St. to the stained glass crowd
And I know that He can hear me if I cry out loud

I want to be like my Jesus!
I want to be like my Jesus!

Not a posterchild for American prosperity, but like my Jesus
You see I’m tired of living for success and popularity
I want to be like my Jesus but I’m not sure what that means to be like You Jesus
Cause You said to live like You, love like You but then You died for me
Can I be like You Jesus?
I want to be like my Jesus.